Well time certainly flies when you’re stuck at home for a few months, huh?
I’m doing well, thankfully, and I hope you all are too. It’s been a long time since I’ve written a blog entry, but I felt like it was time for a little free-form catch-up.
The last few weeks have been interesting to say the least. I have been extremely lucky to have the support of family and friends during the various lockdowns and economic downturns, so the loss of work wasn’t as damaging for me as it surely has been for many. But the lack of a regular schedule, and realizing just how easily life can be disrupted, has certainly had its own impact.
The most obvious and pressing problem has been, of course, financial. Especially for those of us with careers in largely non-essential fields. And that’s where the support has played the biggest role in keeping me safe. But I was surprised by the less obvious problems that I went through as well: for me it was lack of motivation, loss of focus, and worrying about the meaning behind it all. I won’t go into those today, but I’m sure they’ll come up in later blogs.
Like many other educators, I quickly learned the ins and outs of online lessons. It was an adventure that a small percentage of my students were glad to go on with me. Others not so much, but technology hurdles can be a bit much when piled on top of learning a new language, so I totally understand. However, that meant during lock-down my lessons dropped by upwards of 80%.
So I had a lot of time to think. Try new things. Be lazy. Be mad at myself for being lazy. Try more new things.
I tried things like: composing streams on Facebook, goofy YouTube videos, releasing an EP, game streaming on Twitch, reading, reorganizing my room, meditation, binge listening to podcasts, binge watching Netflix, binge watching YouTube, creating a website, deleting that and creating a new website, exercise routines, music business study, and more Netflix…
Quite a bit of stuff, all of it interesting and creative. But even after all that I found myself with this strange feeling of what you might call ‘anxious calm’ : a feeling of general worry even though everything was seemingly OK. If anything, I’ve been MORE creative than usual over the past few months, and yet at the end of the day I still feel like I haven’t made any progress. I think that’s a natural reaction when the world comes to a standstill, best laid plans and all that.
So, to combat that feeling I’ve decided to seize this opportunity and create a new plan for myself. A new direction for the near future and perhaps beyond. Adapt to the New Normal if you will.
I’ll be making a little series of blog posts about that plan, my thoughts on what the New Normal means for me and my work, and the different things I’m working on. I would also love to hear about your experience during all of this as well, so you can leave comments for me down below!
In the meantime, stay creative